Life = Bitch

I've been always trailing behind... especially with her.

idk why... its been like that. the second time now.

Her = girl i like btw

so Her friend and i were discussing HC like 15 min ago in general. then Her friend asks me if i wanna ask someone. i tell her "eh... im not sure." then Her friend tells me how HC is better to go stag and stuff. then she brings up how Her is going stag, though she likes some other dude

record scratch... SAY WHAT??? i can't believe this... really. i mean yeah, she did discuss him a bit as only a friend, which i know pretty damn well right now. then her friend asks me if i wanted to ask Her cuz this might have wrecked my "potential plans", and i tell Her friend no, thus lying to her. what the hell can i say? what the hell should i say?

I was in a similar slush last year... where I could have gotten her, but some bastard beat me to it. The thing is, either A. i'm too damn slow; or B. i'm too damn nervous; or even C. i have no damn clue what i need to do. since i've realized that i like her, i have to concentrate how to ask her. i mean yeah, we've been friends but it can be quite nerve wracking.

it really tears me up... not so much with the crying and shit... but more emotionally. idk how the heck . Both times i realized how much i love her, both times i've been beat out by someone else. i need to make her realize that i am THE one.

my life sucks.... its a bitch