Change? Yes... Can I?

"It aint much I'm asking if you want the truth; here's to the future for the dreams of youth."

 - "I Want It All," Queen, The Miracle

"See I had to go / See I had to move / No more wastin’ time / You can’t wait for life / Were just racin’ time / Where’s the finish line?"

 - "Love Lockdown," Kanye West, 808s and Heartbreaks

I'm racing against time, but I just can't seem to find the finish line.  

With only 5 months left of high school (holy shit... time flies so effing fast!) and 7.5 till I enter college (okay... I REALLY can't imagine this is happening, but it's gonna), I don't have much time left before it happenes.  The change.  The transition from my chillaxed life here in Cupertino, as an MVHS student... as a friend... as a member of the many awesome things I took or will take part of here, like Journo <3,deca,>

Obama: For so long, I've been tooting the horn in support of Barack Obama, our next president as of Tuesday, January 20th.  He's coming to DC and to the forefront of America bringing in the change that yes, we can see.  I'm ready for that change... for a fresh face to do something good for America.  Someone who will ensure that I can sleep soundly at night... that I can make and save money without fearing it disappearing to financial crises... that the career I do take up will not be interrupted or impacted by unexpected economic pitfalls.  But am I ready for the real change in my day-to-day life?

Back home: For so long, I've been keeping my self posted with what's going on back home in India.  Seeing all the shit that's happened... be it the Mumbai blasts (we'll never forget those who died... rest in peace) or the shit Kashmir's been through (i'm mad i haven't been to my real home forever, but it's slowly getting better and that's good because then i'll be able to "come home again") or the rampant corruption.  Now, at least the people are taking some sort of stand in trying to ensure the weak + easily swayed government is doing something to respond to the people's demands.  There is change here, which I am personally very ready for.  But am I ready for the real change in my day-to-day life?

Personal Life: lots of change there as well.  What I had hoped to be the first one turned out to crash and burn in a bad way.  It tore me apart and I had to bounce back just in time for AP testing that year.  Worst thing that happened to me in a while.  Seeing someone as beautiful and great as her turn around and snap the guitolline on my neck and kill me was just horrible and it made me sad.  Even now, I have no damn clue how I was able to recover and bounce back from everything normally.  I took to relationship advising instead to bounce back which worked, though I still had a hole in my heart.  Then, my best friend came back for me and I was hopeful of something to pursue with her.  Yet, it crashed + burned as I was left biting the dust, having been beat by somebody else.  Killed me in a different way but yet again, I still forced myself to move on as well.  Not easy, since I really do not like anybody at the moment since I'm sorta still recovering.  I've dealt with this change.  But am I ready for the real change in my day-to-day life?

Music: Hell... even my music has changed sorta.  Having transitioned from exclusively rock + hip/hop to more classic + progressive rock, The Beatles, Queen, techno, electronica/dance, and pop, I'm liking it a lot.  It's been pretty cool listening to the stuff from Europe, esp. Basshunter and DJ Mangoo.  Good stuff by these guys, indeed.  This has gotten me from not only doing guitar and piano, but changing so that I can explore making electronica... which has bene pretty fun actually.  Sitting behind FL Studio 8 has been an interesting experience.  I've changed here pretty easily.  But am I ready for the real change in my day-to-day life?

Now it really does make me wonder... will I be ready to face the real change in my life?  Will I be able to cope with what comes my way in the near future?  How will I adjust with what's gonna become of my life in the next couple of months?  

Really.  I have no friggin' idea what's gonnna happen to me.  Neither does anybody no what's gonna happen with them.  But at the end of the day, there is only one thing we can do despite whatever's going on around.  That one thing is to take in each experience like another breath of air, another sip of water, another step taken forward.  Let it all happen and move on from there.  Act on instinct, but act more on principle + circumstance.  You make your life, nobody else.  Only you can make your life, so just "live your life" and make the most of the best gift you've received.  Who knows where you'll land up?  Nobody does, but just let the magic happen.  Let stuff fall in your lap.  As Mama Gump put it, "Life's like a box of chocolates... you never know what you're gonna get."